I know and i really know..

I should really clear that out but I didnt.

And I did it.

Action needed some motivation to move forward 

I glad I am still fine=]

we are still fine too

Moving forward, please gain back my positive energy 
Jia You Sannie Wong
Let's do it 

那天的我们其实就像那年的6月6
只是那些过去以后都把我们酝酿得很收敛
彼此懂得怎样去用另一种方式去爱他人
既然幸福定义里面没有影子
影子也会奋顾相随
影子绝不会超越你不想的范围
除非连你自己都不知道自己要什么
单纯到可以的影子
却不断让人怀疑影子那麽奋顾的心机


无奈的影子 26 Jan 

Throw back throw back...

Sorry to be realized it so late. Girls..you both been loving me so much, you both wont care anything but just want to protect me. That much you both did and that much I break it. I am really hindsight, why do I only understanding of the situation after it has happened..& I know I got no chance to revert back anything. However, it this really overpower to beat down our relationship? we been go through so much..
Really love you all. really miss the moment that we can get together, we chill together, we sleep together, we talk together, we laugh together, we do whatever together...I really miss it. 

What I have happen the passed, I can really recovered just a moment. because the love you both gave is enough for everything. After so many hurt and I know I am 活该。I know this is really stupid enough. for this simple reason and I know I need to stand up myself. I know it been like so many trouble and unhappiness for you both. Sorry...really sorry...

the last but not least. thank you to be in my life. you both paint my life colorful! I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH. 

to my two angel

Goal for 2015
1) New Zealand Bungee Jump
2) WSQ Training 
3) KK & Sipadan island diving
4) Japan trip 
5) Sponsorship a child 
6) Plan a family trip 
7) Insanity everyday 
8) House saving plan 
9) e-commerce selling 
10) Grow a long hair not to cut it any more
11) To buffer more time for my love one 
12) Spa at least once a month 
13) Drink less but chill more
14) beetle dream
15) learn from the pain

寻找回快乐的自己。。。

是我太坚强吗？还是我太逞强？

总是把伤心，痛苦， 不快乐往怀里收。。

不说出来不现出来不露出来

我甚至已经不懂怎么样的自己才是自己。。

心碎了我却不允许自己掉下眼泪，
不是没感觉
只是我没有能力承受再更痛了

电话接通了却不允许自己说更多下去
不是我没话说
只是我不想变成干扰

想念了却严厉的喊停
不是我没想法
只是我知道这样不应该

心都软了却不允许自己关心下去
不是我从不用心
只是努力想法让自己忘记

决口不提也不允许自己提到任何字眼
不是因为我不在乎
只是这是我唯一可以保护你的方法

谁来心疼一个快撑不下去的我

Brain 1st Dec

After the 6 days family trip and another 10 days business trip...

I am back and getting to settle down myself..what's the meaning..LOL
Not to keep away all the pain but to face and to forgive. No one are able to heal the pain except myself, since no one can do the job, why dont I just do it.

Thank you someone to be with me since the day 1. I am really appreciate. Never ever thought of we still have intercourse. You remind me on all the what I have and showing me that this is definitely more than what I have it. 
Not like others, but giving a little little action to fill up the gap for me. I am not hope anything but to just wishing happiness is always with you. Thank you. 

brain_24 Nov

Time flyss as just finished my 7days holiday to Taiwan with my family. For just a simple reason and I know I need to keep my sadful heart away.

Every single moment with empty, all the memory floating up..
The most memory that i really afraid to is not you said you love me but is saying that I still got you.
Do you know that..how do I going to alive when the reality is without you. 
However, please accept the reality, it just means that he is not belong to you.
  

给自己的话：

自己的局面请自己收拾，尚若他心有你，保护你都来不及了何况让你自生自灭。

原来我这辈子最对不起的就是自己了。。我一次又一次让它。。。。
所以请做好自己，珍惜自己，爱护自己，保护自己
理解自己，欣赏自己， 安慰自己，告诉自己
一个人，也可以，
都可以， 一定可以。。。。。

Starting A New Journey...

Time Fly...

I am working for this regional business job for 3 month time and next week!! I am going to fly next week!! 

I should say Oh Yeah! As I'm decided to note down all the story regarding a regional business executive casestudy here! This is for myself or for those who like me that dreaming there is one day can have this kind of lifestyle. 

For this job scope, require a very strong mentality, independent, self motivation and so on..WHY? Cause you have to travel very frequent alone, and you cant like travel kind choosing the country that you like and you go. NO for this job. You may need to visit those country that you really hate. Why? Cause your time is so limited and it must be plan very well as you will try to make full use of your time to fulfill you task. Why? Jat Lag!! But you need to continue to work still...

You are require to explore those potential country to develop and build-up business. From Study ==> Collect Date Base ==> Set Target ==> Approach ==> Build Up Rapport ==> Maintain and Build Up Business and so on. Do agree with me that every step are require a very deep story and study. For me , I really like to explore thing, no doubt it is a place, a object or even a human...I LIKE. This passion is from why am I decided to study Bio-Tech in a very first place, after study that, I realised it will not enough if i am just understand from the inner-molecules. As thing always happen from the heart. By communicate with people, I believe I understand and explore more!!

Coming will be the very packful business trip for me. Will then up date here....  
        

Positive Energy Words

Here are some words and I hope it will gain back your positive energy! 
_Accept 
_Advantage 
_Accomplish
_Amazing
_Appreciation
_Admire
_Beauty
_Blissful
_Best
_Bless
_Blossom
_Beloved
_Care
_Charming
_Capable
_Direction
_Dream
_Desirable
_Enjoy
_Energy
_Future
_Fun 
_Family
_Freedom
_Forgiveness
_Glow
_Grow
_Glad
_Hope 
_Heart
_Health
_Hello
_In-Love
_Inspired
_Just
_Joyful 
_Kindness 
_Kiss
_Keep-up
_Love
_LOLS
_Live
_Life
_Longevity
_Like
_Meaningful
_Motivate
_Nature
_Nice
_Opportunity
_Okay
_Open 
_Positive
_Prefect
_Power
_Present 
_Pleasure
_Pick-Me-Up
_Relax
_Relief
_Renew
_Smile
_Support
_Shelter
_Sparkle
_Trust
_True
_Touch 
_Therapy
_Upgrade
_Understand 
_Value
_Well-being
_Worth
_Wellness
_Wonderful
_XOXO
_Yes



  

What is life?

SHE is a mother
SHE guide me along since young
SHE is a model of leading me to have a kind-hearted personal 
SHE channel me to forgive people even-though he/she hurt me in the pass
SHE conduct me the best way of revenge, which to treat the one even better  
SHE tell me that give away is happy than receive 

However, why the god does not treasure her?
The fact is so ruthless. 
Everything is just like a dream
Withdraw everything with no reason giving... 

GOOD THINGS

GOOD THINGS

@ sunrise and sunset
@ rainy night 
@ morning greetings 
@ video call
@ relaxing massage 
@ the smell of home-cook-food
@ busy on something to look forward 
@ help to grooming others 
@ hearing song when alone without anyone
@ travel 
@ diving
@ got someone to cut nail 
@ someone is beside 
@ honey drink
@ a big hand to hold 
@ visit show-house
@ donation 
@ strong wind brow toward face 
@ chilling & hanging 
@ beach  


brain_15 July

Counting Down...

The week is going to end and tomorrow will be TGIF!! 

Predict that I will have a suffer weekend coming as I am going for my dental appointment later! I will not have a normal dinner for this two week ahead I believe. MR T are going to accompany me to have my last normal dinner today as will be going to dental after the dinner tonight but I am still digesting on what I wanna eat tonight, due to my sinful dinner last night. LOLS..

Mookata at Golden Mile Complex with A Xi.. Seem like we are celebrating both of us have found our love FINALLY! Anyway the good thing is that he is changing himself to a real man role ever...

Brain_10 July 

21/06/2010

惊动的死讯让我瞬间领悟了很多很多。。。我会永远为你们祈祷， 希望你们安息。。。害你们的人一定会有因果的。。
很多东西都是来不及的。。尽管再后悔也于事无补。。很多东西冥冥中早已有安排，难道要等死那天才来看开吗？？
看到爸爸悲伤的神情和那泪汪汪的眼睛。我真的很心痛很心痛。。束手无策的我真的不懂该怎么安慰一个外表和内心都一样强悍坚强的爸爸。。那天我知道他一直都在压抑自己。。压抑自己去想或做那些会让自己哭泣的事情。。他越是压抑我的心里更是难过。。
我还记得我们都很想念姑姑做的雪糕蛋糕。。那是我吃过最好吃的。。我们常说要和姑姑学做的。。有些东西就是太迟。。没机会了。。永远。。。
我真的觉得我失去太多了。。。当时的不成熟和顾虑确实照成很多遗憾但是很多的不开心都是因为自己想太多。。。何必。。该是放下和往前走的时候了。。
很谢谢自己懂了。。现在领悟还不算太迟。。我会很珍惜很爱护我还有的幸福--亲情， 手中的幸福不是本来就有的。它很难得。。自于过去的。已经没有的回头， 我会放下说再见。。但它是回忆我不会忘记它。。

So cute baby...

FAMILY DAY!!!!

KL Trip!!!!

FULLHOUSE CAFE....
DAMN NICE!!!!!!

DESARU SEABEACH.......
I HAVE THE GOOD MEMORY AT THE MOMENT....

Bora-Bora Island
WOW...
Damn nice man...
i wanted to go there......
my target not Sipadan island again..
is this island now....