Throw back throw back...

Sorry to be realized it so late. Girls..you both been loving me so much, you both wont care anything but just want to protect me. That much you both did and that much I break it. I am really hindsight, why do I only understanding of the situation after it has happened..& I know I got no chance to revert back anything. However, it this really overpower to beat down our relationship? we been go through so much..
Really love you all. really miss the moment that we can get together, we chill together, we sleep together, we talk together, we laugh together, we do whatever together...I really miss it. 

What I have happen the passed, I can really recovered just a moment. because the love you both gave is enough for everything. After so many hurt and I know I am 活该。I know this is really stupid enough. for this simple reason and I know I need to stand up myself. I know it been like so many trouble and unhappiness for you both. Sorry...really sorry...

the last but not least. thank you to be in my life. you both paint my life colorful! I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH. 

to my two angel

Goal for 2015
1) New Zealand Bungee Jump
2) WSQ Training 
3) KK & Sipadan island diving
4) Japan trip 
5) Sponsorship a child 
6) Plan a family trip 
7) Insanity everyday 
8) House saving plan 
9) e-commerce selling 
10) Grow a long hair not to cut it any more
11) To buffer more time for my love one 
12) Spa at least once a month 
13) Drink less but chill more
14) beetle dream
15) learn from the pain

寻找回快乐的自己。。。

是我太坚强吗？还是我太逞强？

总是把伤心，痛苦， 不快乐往怀里收。。

不说出来不现出来不露出来

我甚至已经不懂怎么样的自己才是自己。。

心碎了我却不允许自己掉下眼泪，
不是没感觉
只是我没有能力承受再更痛了

电话接通了却不允许自己说更多下去
不是我没话说
只是我不想变成干扰

想念了却严厉的喊停
不是我没想法
只是我知道这样不应该

心都软了却不允许自己关心下去
不是我从不用心
只是努力想法让自己忘记

决口不提也不允许自己提到任何字眼
不是因为我不在乎
只是这是我唯一可以保护你的方法

谁来心疼一个快撑不下去的我

Brain 1st Dec